Friends, in the past couple of weeks, I’ve suffered two major panic attacks upon waking up. They started off with a feeling of dizziness… which turned into my anxiety kicking in, and then the panic amped it up until my heart was beating so fast that I felt like I was either going to pass out or have a heart attack.
I’m “only” 33, and as a person who has never had any kind of major health issues, this kind of thing makes me feel awful, because I have a fear of hospitals on top of everything, having never really gotten used to them.
Luckily my roommate was home this morning, and he just kept me company and talked to me, which calmed me down. I was definitely ready to dial 911 though, in case something happened.
I have two things I want to do: figure out what made me feel dizzy both times, whether it was food-related, stress-related, etc., and also figure out a way to NOT panic, even if that stuff happens again.
I saw a very unhelpful doctor the first time, and got some anti-anxiety/stress/depression meds that don’t seem to be doing anything.
Having a fear of going to sleep now is terrible.
When I called a friend to chat, she started asking me about what makes me happy, and to try to think of things related to that, in order to get my mind off of things. That’s why I’m making this post here.
For two years now, I’ve been visiting this forum often multiple times a day. I’m obsessed with new tech, new builds, etc. It’s become a very expensive and addicting hobby, as I’m sure you all understand. I don’t post much, but I do read a lot.
I don’t really have any real point to this post other than to write things down, be open about my anxiety and OWN it, and just say thank you for all the knowledge and cool pictures that keep me inspired.